I was raised ultra conservative Christian, but with some complex factors. Now that I’m breaking a lot of the mental shackles I accumulated along the way, I’m not quite sure what I believe anymore. I know God is there, and Jesus Christ. A lot of my works in progress have a very solid relationship with God as part of the main character’s life. But can I go on writing for the main characters with confidence for the Christian audience when almost everything I used to believe is on such shaky ground right now?
I think you’re the only one who can really answer that at the end of the day. But I can tell you from experience that if you hold onto faith* and ask Jesus to help you find the answer to your questions, your understanding (and therefore your writing) will be stronger on the other end.
*(and keep studying the Bible because there really are a lot of answers in there and it’s better to hear them straight from God than through the filter of imperfect man)